In 2004 I purchased by credit card (meaning: with money I didn’t have) Tom and Penelope Pauley’s RichDreams.com Quantum Marketing e-class…oh, I think I paid almost two grand.  Is that possible?  I didn’t have the money, but I rationalized that the success I would enjoy from the class would quickly pay back the amount I charged and more.  Well, I’m still paying for it, so it’s time to reap the benefits fully already. 

It is now late 2008, and like a lot of other classes I’ve taken in my life, I did not finish it.  Well, at least not in the 8 to 12 week time frame that was expected.  I did see some positive shifts come at that time in my life. 

However, once I got a few good things that I thought I wanted, I wandered away from the path and rested on my laurels a bit too long.  The magic changeover that I wanted was never able to complete itself.  Now, after doing things “my” (ego) way for the last 4 years, I’m ready to hunker down, buckle down, whatever you want to call it, and see if I can really create some lasting changes in my life by following and completing the course.This time, I have decided to focus on ONE(1) intention at a time, rather than an entire, meticulous plan regarding the life I think I want from top to bottom.  Before when I was doing the course I was asking for the full monty (car, house, job, etc.).  What is funny in a sad way is that all of those things presented themselves to me and I did not love myself enough to see them when they were right there offering themselves to me in front of my face.  As a consequence, I made choices that left me in lack mode for longer than I really had to be.  I want to allow myself to release disapproving of myself for making those choices at that time and trust the beat of my own rhythm and Divine time. 

Even though I did not finish the course within the 8 to 12 weeks, I am still motivated and determined to finish.  Starting now.

The ONE intention for today is gracefully receiving an offer for a position that pays me what I’m truly worth (market value) and harmonizes and resonates with my heart song.   

In conclusion:  I hope you appreciate my honesty and frankness, and that this sharing of my life is helpful to you in your own.  I could front about who I think am, but the truth of the matter is that I am on a path of discovering who I really am.  I am still learning and growing, and experience has been the best teacher.  Why I’ve had to prolong the learning for so long, instead of fully stepping into living fully into a glorious and fabulous life of ease and grace is beyond me, but I still intend to make that shit happen.